My Stand...!! !

Hello to everyone who is reading this. I am very sad today. You’re thinking why? Hmmm, it’s because I forgot where I stand. I forgot that I do not have the rights to be happy. I forgot that I do not have the rights to think about happiness.

After such a long time I was happy again. But it was a happiness that could not be with me for long. I knew it though but still my heart wanted the happiness. And now in the end, I have to hurt another innocent heart. Why is it that when I want to make someone happy, that someone is actually being hurt by me? Am I so unfortunate or is it my fate is such that I have to live this disgraceful life?

Sometimes I wonder, “Why am I living this ridiculous life where I only can give sadness and pain to others? Why am I living to get hurt? Why?” But I only can wonder. I don’t have the answers. I wish to say sorry to all you who are reading my blog. I am saying sorry if I have hurt anyone of you. I have hurt enough and now I don’t want to hurt anyone. I am sorry, really very SORRY !! !